Smiling thinking back to this soul filling trip to Colorado and Red Rocks when I was in such a fun state of expansion, fully In my joy, feeling so vibrant, alive and free.
For years, I have been working on being compassionate towards myself when I am having undesirable feelings, and there's a reason they call it a “loving kindness practice” I have been noticing a pattern lately- when i am having unwanted feelings of irritability, resentment, sadness or anger my go to is to resist and try to change it.
We are human ‘BEings’ not human ‘doings’ or human ‘havings’ yet we live in a Society that so often defines us by what we do and what we have. I Feel empowered when I remember my ability to choose to BE the being behind the doing. To choose what messages I listen to and absorb and choose to ignore the bullshit about the “shoulds of life” that our society and media attempts to ingrain in us.
10 years ago, I trusted my gut and made the 3000 mile move from Boston to San diego to create what has become a life full of gratitude, continuous growth, joy and so much love...what I value most in life. I am so grateful to see how the dots of life have all connected in a miraculous, yet not surprising way.
I am 26 weeks pregnant- post Christmas in the midst of Covid and feeling very limited with options to light me up. Surfing is no longer safe and spin no longer feels good on my heavy belly so walking, dance and yoga are my options of movement for releasing energy. I woke up feeling completely unmotivated and useless- unable to even fold laundry or put dishes away.
I’ve been feeling really flat lately, in a low energy funk, for too many reasons to mention- to name a few...I’m 6 weeks pregnant and riding waves of nausea, thyroid imbalances, we are in month 6 of the Covid pandemic which brings a collective anxiety, anger, uneasiness as well as a disconnection from so many we love and the deprivation of our usual social and fun outlets.
I've had many long conversations with other mamas about sleep within the first year, and although it is reassuring that I was not alone and that the struggle is real, there never seems to be any comforting conclusion. What I have come to understand is that the more we can let go of all the “SHOULDS'' that we are bombarded with, the more we can tune into our powerful gift, the voice of our heart and our motherly intuition.
